Who have I become?

Over the past couple of weeks I have noticed a "change" in myself. If I had to describe myself right now, it would be with a short-temper and a sharp-tongue. I don't necessarily like this "new me", the crabby (this is putting it nicely) version of Lauren. The weird thing is.....I can't seem to tame this new beast from within. I am having to literally bite my tongue to keep from unleashing my mouth. My courtesy filter is no longer existent....but I want it back.

The truth is I am freaking out that this new version is permanent. Someone please tell me this is normal in pregnancy....and my "filtered-self" will return in due time. I bet my husband would like that, too.

Nearly a dozen....

Wednesday morning Brandon and I were up and going early. We both had our retrievals scheduled and everything went well. Brandon and I are both terribly sore. We are walking so gingerly you may mistake us for the elderly. The discomfort that I am feeling can not be compared to any discomfort I have had before, as I have never felt anything quite like it. And Brandon's discomfort isn't much better.

Thankfully, after talking with our doctor yesterday, the pain has been completely worthwhile. We learned that the doctor retrieved 18 eggs from my ovaries. Of those 18 eggs, 12 were considered "mature" and could be used in the fertilization process. They attempted to fertilize 12 eggs and 10 successfully fertilized! There it is......10 fertilized eggs. 10 chances at having a baby Bice.

Brandon and I are so excited! There is such a huge sense of relief that has swept over the both of us. Although we both feel very positive about our transfer, if for some reason it doesn't work the first time, we feel truly blessed to have at least 7 or 8 potential frozen embryos that was can work with in the future.

Our first transfer attempt will be on Monday! We are keeping our fingers crossed and our thoughts positive as we go into what could be our first pregnancy!